hardened, pardoned

Like Pharaoh. I wouldn’t let go.
Heart hard. Heart scarred.

Not a person, but a feeling,
An anger that was seething.

It took taking everything from me,
and still I chased it to the Red Sea.

The Red Sea. Your blood shed for me.
And now I’m Israel. Set free.
Separated from that which bound me.
Thank Jesus. I am free.

Bittersweet

Bittersweet.

This feeling I can’t seem to beat.

You know that I can’t help but leave.

My flight to take me overseas,

Let go of all I want to keep.

Get ready to be broken down,

Take hold of hope from underground,

The deep deep part that can’t be found

Without a shovel, without a crown.

I trust Your love, in God we trust

Stretch my heart, LORD, if You must

To the HEART… again

Me and my team of six are making our way to Mali, with a three week training at the HEART Institute.

Yes, this is where I studied and lived for the past four months. It’s like coming home for me. The air is a little bit colder. I feel slightly older, bolder. Ask me why? I’ll shrug my shoulder.

Okay, I’m done for now. I’m out of clever rhymes. But really, I have high hopes for my Mali team. We’ve been getting along well and shared many a hearty laugh. Keep us in your prayers! Pray for continued and increased unity among us, for love and peace to abound. 

My expectations for Mali:

I expect to be thoroughly challenged, to meet my inadequacy, look it in the face, full of fear, hope, and courage, to see my God show Himself to be completely able to handle all that Africa can throw at me. 

Two more weeks at HEART and we sprout wings and fly. Layover in Paris, then Mali!

Update!

I am currently at the HEART Institute in Lake Wales, Florida! We are about half-way through the semester and God has already been stretching me and causing me to grow.
The first night here, I became well-acquainted with cockroaches, palmetto bugs, lizards, and frogs.
I’ve enjoyed early morning chores when we get to watch the sunrise as we feed animals and build fences and such.
The stars at night have drawn my eyes to the heavens, and reminded me of how big our God is and yet He still came to creatures as small as us.
I am in community with 19 other students, and we’ve had to face confrontation and come out stronger for it. I am so thankful for all the beautiful people here and excited to have about 1 month and a half to get to know them better and see glimpses of my Savior through them.
We all went to Belize and learned so very much. I still have to process it, so more updates on that later.
I am slowly but surely getting ready for Mali!! A very large amount of funds still need to be raised! Please pray for God’s providence in that. Pray that He moves His people to give generously!
If you want to give (any amount is appreciated greatly,) let me know and I will give you details on how you can do that.
Also pray for God to prepare our hearts for all that He has in store for me and my team! Pray that we work together well and build each other up! Thank you!
❤ Love and blessings

Ransom

Isaiah 51:11 (English Standard Version)

11And the ransomed of the LORD shall return
and come to Zion with singing;
everlasting joy shall be upon their heads;
they shall obtain gladness and joy,
and sorrow and sighing shall flee away.

ran·som

–noun

1.

the redemption of a prisoner, slave, or kidnapped person, of captured goods, etc., for a price.
2.

the sum or price paid or demanded.
3.

a means of deliverance or rescue from punishment for sin, esp. the payment of a redemptive fine.
–verb (used with object)

4.

to redeem from captivity, bondage, detention, etc., by paying a demanded price.
5.

to release or restore on receipt of a ransom.
6.

to deliver or redeem from punishment for sin.